Archive for March 18, 2007

I’m Back

March 18, 2007

It has been several days since I’ve blogged…but I’m back.

I’ve been struggling with trying to figure out what direction God is taking my life.

I’ve been struggling with a bad attitude towards my kids and husband for a couple of weeks now.

I’ve been tired.

I’ve been at a Hearts at Home christian women’s conference.  (Thanks to Nana and Papa for helping Daddy with the kids.)

But I’m back with lots of pictures to post and lots of feelings to express.  But it’s 10:36 pm.  I just put the boys to bed and moved the girls from my bed to their own.  I’m still tired. 

My tank has been on empty for some time now.  I’m wore out.  I’m emotional.  The conference I went to did fill my tank…lots of encouragement, lots of ideas, lots of time away from my kids and husband. 

At the conference I bought Lucy a new bible.  She loves bibles.  I came in to my bedroom one day where I had a movie playing for both girls.  Grace was watching the movie, Lucy had Jamie’s bible.  “Whatcha doin’ Lucy?”  “Just reading the bible,” she said as she kept rotating it…since she can’t read she never knows which side is up or down.  So I bought her her very own “adult” bible.  It was smaller than a normal bible and had a pretty flower on the leather cover.  I asked  her to read me a story last night out of the bible.  She opened it and started with, “This page says ‘Don’t be mean.’  This page says ‘Don’t yell.’  This page says, ‘I love you, you love me, we’re a happy family with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you, won’t you say you love me too.'”  She is such a lovey girl.  I got big hugs and big kisses on the lips.  One of the greatest joys of my day is laying in bed with her at night reading stories.  We rarely read out of a book.  Normally I ask her what she wants me to tell her a story about and she says something like, “The Light” or “the window” or “Boston”.  Then it is my motherly duty to come up with some grand adventure about that object where she is the hero. 

After her and Gracie and I played for a while, I asked her to tell me another story in the bible.  She said, “Once upon a time, there was a girl.  Her name was “A Princess”.  And there was a boy.  Then there was another boy.  And they got into a fight.  And he cut his head off.  Then there was another girl.  And they got into a fight.  And then there was another girl.  Three girls and they all were fighting.”  I don’t remember the rest.  I said something about the girls being friends and it went in a better direction.  But I was tired.  I usually fall asleep before the girls do.  Sometimes in my bed, sometimes in theirs.

Today she told me a story out of her bible about God.  He was in the forest and he was lost.  And there were other people there and they were all lost.  And they stayed there until they went to heaven.  I love her stories. 

Gracie is full of hugs and kisses these days.  She wants constant attention and constant “touching”.  She loves big wet kisses and squeezes.  She laughs.  A lot.  Jamie and I were watching her watch a movie today.  It was so cute.  She’d squeal in delight at parts of the movie.  She’d grip her hands together and hold them up by her grinning face. 

I’m starting to ramble because I’m so tired.  I have to go to bed now and blog more tomorrow.  I just want to blog every second of their lives because it’s going by so quickly.  I don’t want to ever forget.  The boys will be 1 in less than a month.  What a sad thought to go to bed on.